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Why am I nervous about “just going”

Example: Today I woke up nervous, per usual. At least 3 days a week I wake up with a fluttery heart, jittery hands, and just want to stay in bed. Today was a little worse. Today I had to meet my dad at the bank to take care of some of business, then I had to go with him to the doctor office to get his med refills. I made myself an appt too since we see the same physician, and it was time for my refills. On top of the regular work day. 🙂 IDK why I get so nervous. To most people, its a simple doc appt. Refills, easy peasy. No labs, no tests, not like we’re having surgery, right?

Not for me. It’s not that I’m nervous about the doc appt or going to the bank. I’m just “nervous to go”. WHY !! It’s like if I have anything to do outside of my normal day, I’m a nervous wreck over it. Even if it’s not a big deal. Literally thought I was gonna panic the closer it got to time to go. Not to mention, my workday was a little chaotic this morning before I even left for the bank appointment.

Another example: My youngest son has to get braces. We go in a couple weeks to get his brackets placed. I’m nervous about that. Already thinking about it, I get a little fast heartrate. No idea why. Its literally no big deal, but to me, its outside of my normal, so I’m nervous about it.

Anyone have any thoughts? Or anyone out there experiencing the same thing?

Am I crazy?

-Brandy

Quieting Your Mind

I’m learning that quieting your mind is sooooo hard. My brain is constantly on 1 million things a minute. One thing I have to figure out is how to shhhhh it.

I’ve read somewhere to let the thoughts come and then release them. That if you keep pushing the thoughts down, eventually they will come back up and explode in your face. So, I am learning to let myself have the thought and then release it. Just watch it float away, down a stream of water. Knowing that I can’t change the things that I cannot change. I can’t make people think the way I do, can’t always be in control of the situation. I’ve been trying to retrain my brain, and let the things float down the river, and it does seem to help.

We have more power that we believe that we do. Our brain is soo strong but can also play tricks on us. I’m slowly trying to believe in myself and learn that I am the one in control of my own choices, not everyone else’s. I’ve spent sooo many years worried about everyone else and taking care of everything. My thoughts and obsessiveness overcome me to the point of no turning back sometimes. This is me quieting my mind, throwing it down the river, and watching it float away.

What do you do to try and quiet your mind ?

-Brandy

Let’s Dig In

“Growth requires that you get uncomfortable, that you be vulnerable, that you risk failure. Pursuing comfort may feel great today but it will ultimately hold you back from your potential. Lean in, believe in yourself, do the work.”

-Kevin DeShazo

Let’s discuss. What does that quote mean to you? (c0mment)

For me. It’s a lot! I’m an over thinker, over analyzer. I’m the WHAT IF person? What if this, what if that …None of which ever happens. I never step out of my comfort zone. I love a routine. Eat at a certain time, sleep certain time, wake up. etc… You get my point. I hate being vulnerable. Which is one reason why I started this blog. To step out.

Mel Robbins has a podcast I’ve been listening to. In one of the episodes, she said to start a project. To keep your brain busy. She said to redirect your anxiousness onto something that would give purpose. So, here we are. I really want to overcome these feelings that I have. I feel like no one understands them if I’m being honest. Feelings of nervousness, of losing control. Feelings of not being myself. I literally wake up some days in sheer panic attack for zero reason. Heck, if I’m being totally truthful, I’m not even sure who I am most days. So here we are, this is my project. I want to interact with you all. Let’s talk about anything. I will post daily, and you guys’ comment. Let’s figure out together how we can better ourselves, without wrecking ourselves 🙂

-Brandy

Hello World!

Hey Everyone! It’s me, Brandy. How are ya ? I started this blog as “a project.” A way to keep my mind occupied, and off of my constant inner struggles.

Inner Strength is something that we all need, but yet we all lack. And believe me when I tell you that I’m first in line at the anxiety buffet. So, start on this journey with me. Let’s chat, laugh, cry, and spill our feelings onto the paper. Let’s comment, focus, and do our best every day to just LIVE!!

First, a little about me. I’m a 44-year-old wife, mother, employee, daughter, sister… You name it. lol. Just like all of you. Living and jumping hurdles every day. I’m married with 4 kids in total. Two of which are my bonus babies. Oldest is 28 and the youngest is 15. I work as a full-time insurance agent. Which keeps my brain on GO all day every day.

You may be thinking… Her kids are grown, she has a great job, great husband. why is she struggling? Well, the grown kids bring bigger problems, great job brings great responsibility. Those things, along with soooo many others are the reason I’m here. Talking to you 🙂 So, lets jump off in this together and see where it takes us. Feel free to comment, ask questions, or pour your heart out. We’re here for it .

-Brandy